[00:00.000] 作词 : Jonathon Quiles
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Jonathon Quiles
[00:14.480] I can't even lie, it's hard to commit
[00:16.115] When I find someone, I just convince
[00:17.766] Myself that she's like my last
[00:19.339] It doesn't last and then we split
[00:21.035] This pattern is making me sick
[00:22.623] Trauma bond again and again
[00:24.229] Playing scenarios that don't exist
[00:25.894] Stuck in the past, I need a grip
[00:27.654] Loves a game and I let her win
[00:29.232] I can't let nobody in
[00:30.816] She's left me damaged
[00:31.770] Caught her red handed
[00:32.681] She single handedly
[00:33.459] Showed me when
[00:34.213] You give your heart
[00:35.138] You'll get torn apart
[00:35.931] And left in the dark
[00:36.709] It's hitting me hard
[00:37.522] Since you left your mark
[00:38.328] Emotionally scarred
[00:39.115] It is what it is, damn
[00:40.921] Inside my heart, lies a feeling of hate
[00:42.569] Cuz after 2 years you still lied to my face
[00:44.084] I know you love causing misery
[00:45.391] Look at your history
[00:46.361] No wonder, nobody stayed
[00:47.538] Saw the red flags and thought you could change
[00:49.165] Was it your plan, to throw me away
[00:50.695] Was it your plan to cheat all those days
[00:52.408] What was your plan
[00:53.860] There's a trail of victims laying behind you
[00:55.518] I died on that path
[00:56.861] You cheated on me, then played the victim
[00:58.653] **** I still took you back
[01:00.083] Got my new girl tryna pick up the pieces
[01:01.384] Got my new girl fighting all my demons
[01:02.941] Got me set back and feeling defeated
[01:05.224] And lately all I can think is
[01:06.707] Maybe I'm not enough
[01:08.182] Said I'ma leave, then called out my bluff
[01:09.754] You knew how to take my feelings
[01:10.877] And twist them I'm wishing
[01:12.004] That there was just never an us
[01:13.154] Got my walls up, it's weighing me down
[01:14.645] Cuz my new girl can't take them down
[01:16.322] I'm afraid she won't wait around
[01:17.949] Me being in pain must make you proud
[01:20.434] Questioning if she loves me
[01:21.517] In this position because of me
[01:23.183] Bled on her when she didn't cut me
[01:24.705] God this feelings disgusting
[01:26.549] I don't want nothing
[01:27.540] But to be vulnerable now and get fixed
[01:29.343] Blaming her for a crime she didn't commit
[01:30.999] She's tells me again and again that
[01:32.103]
[01:34.327] Baby, I'm not like that, I'm not going to hurt you
[01:38.739]
[01:39.177] Yeah, just afraid of another mistake
[01:41.110] I am afraid I don't wanna get played
[01:42.764] I don't wanna give my all again
[01:44.115] Just see all of it being called out as a waste
[01:46.226] She effected me in multiple ways
[01:47.753] Threaten suicide, when I'd walk away
[01:49.494] Playing with my emotions just so I would stay
[01:51.101] And while I stayed I saw all her games
[01:52.820] She was a liar
[01:54.085] She was a cheater
[01:55.199] Look what she done to me
[01:56.688] She even lied to my baby mama
[01:57.996] So I'd lose custody, damn
[02:00.748] I got to let this baggage go
[02:02.678] I got someone in front of me
[02:03.548] Who's in loves with me and
[02:04.471] Got her wondering
[02:05.357] If all her comforting is gunna work
[02:07.116] I'm still discovering, how all that suffering
[02:08.710] Got me uncomfortably scared to get hurt
[02:10.282] This is something no one deserves, nah bah
[02:12.746] Feelings inside
[02:13.439] I feel people going to push me aside
[02:15.118] I'm traumatized, by all of the lies
[02:16.628] I'm paranoid, it coincides
[02:18.330] And I don't know why
[02:19.585] Always got fear in my mind
[02:20.777] Looking for something that's harder to find
[02:22.030] When you experience, betrayal like mine
[02:23.560] Your start to get blind to people that try, I'm
[02:25.982] Done looking back, I'm done looking back
[02:28.233] How can we ever build a future, I live in the past
[02:31.543] It's holding us back, you don't deserve that
[02:33.728] We don't deserve that, it's time to detach
[02:35.945] I wanna last, I see who are and love who I have, I'm
[02:39.504] Done questioning if she loves me
[02:41.057] In this position because me
[02:42.708] Bled on her when she didn't cut me
[02:44.249] God this feelings disgusting
[02:46.051] I don't want nothing
[02:47.156] But to be vulnerable now and get fixed
[02:48.719] Blaming her for a crime she didn't commit
[02:50.291] She's tells me again and again that
[02:51.900]
[02:55.335] I know it's not your fault
[02:56.514] I just, I get so caught up in my head
[03:00.266] Like I just, I can't manage the way that I feel sometimes
[03:04.970] And I just, I know it's not you, It's just
[03:09.040] It's just shit that I went thru
[03:10.499] I know, I know, I know it's not you though
[03:13.020] I got to fix that, I know I do

作词 : Jonathon Quiles
作曲 : Jonathon Quiles
I can't even lie, it's hard to commit
When I find someone, I just convince
Myself that she's like my last
It doesn't last and then we split
This pattern is making me sick
Trauma bond again and again
Playing scenarios that don't exist
Stuck in the past, I need a grip
Loves a game and I let her win
I can't let nobody in
She's left me damaged
Caught her red handed
She single handedly
Showed me when
You give your heart
You'll get torn apart
And left in the dark
It's hitting me hard
Since you left your mark
Emotionally scarred
It is what it is, damn
Inside my heart, lies a feeling of hate
Cuz after 2 years you still lied to my face
I know you love causing misery
Look at your history
No wonder, nobody stayed
Saw the red flags and thought you could change
Was it your plan, to throw me away
Was it your plan to cheat all those days
What was your plan
There's a trail of victims laying behind you
I died on that path
You cheated on me, then played the victim
**** I still took you back
Got my new girl tryna pick up the pieces
Got my new girl fighting all my demons
Got me set back and feeling defeated
And lately all I can think is
Maybe I'm not enough
Said I'ma leave, then called out my bluff
You knew how to take my feelings
And twist them I'm wishing
That there was just never an us
Got my walls up, it's weighing me down
Cuz my new girl can't take them down
I'm afraid she won't wait around
Me being in pain must make you proud
Questioning if she loves me
In this position because of me
Bled on her when she didn't cut me
God this feelings disgusting
I don't want nothing
But to be vulnerable now and get fixed
Blaming her for a crime she didn't commit
She's tells me again and again that
Baby, I'm not like that, I'm not going to hurt you
Yeah, just afraid of another mistake
I am afraid I don't wanna get played
I don't wanna give my all again
Just see all of it being called out as a waste
She effected me in multiple ways
Threaten suicide, when I'd walk away
Playing with my emotions just so I would stay
And while I stayed I saw all her games
She was a liar
She was a cheater
Look what she done to me
She even lied to my baby mama
So I'd lose custody, damn
I got to let this baggage go
I got someone in front of me
Who's in loves with me and
Got her wondering
If all her comforting is gunna work
I'm still discovering, how all that suffering
Got me uncomfortably scared to get hurt
This is something no one deserves, nah bah
Feelings inside
I feel people going to push me aside
I'm traumatized, by all of the lies
I'm paranoid, it coincides
And I don't know why
Always got fear in my mind
Looking for something that's harder to find
When you experience, betrayal like mine
Your start to get blind to people that try, I'm
Done looking back, I'm done looking back
How can we ever build a future, I live in the past
It's holding us back, you don't deserve that
We don't deserve that, it's time to detach
I wanna last, I see who are and love who I have, I'm
Done questioning if she loves me
In this position because me
Bled on her when she didn't cut me
God this feelings disgusting
I don't want nothing
But to be vulnerable now and get fixed
Blaming her for a crime she didn't commit
She's tells me again and again that
I know it's not your fault
I just, I get so caught up in my head
Like I just, I can't manage the way that I feel sometimes
And I just, I know it's not you, It's just
It's just shit that I went thru
I know, I know, I know it's not you though
I got to fix that, I know I do